feelin'

i just wanna know
if you’re feelin’
like i’m feelin’
so i can quit feelin’
like a fool

knots

loose ends
quickly become knots
in the stomach

food for thought

i am thinking
of doing some drinking

if you are thinking
of driving me around

bar to bar
midtown to downtown

from brunch time
to lunch time

and then on in
to late afternoon

light dinner
then i will remember
what it is like
to remember you

just in time

you caught me
just in time

i was about
to clean out
my closet

then clean
your shit
from my toilet

with your favorite shirt

hangers

he said:

i am tired
of you
leaving your
hangers
in the bathroom floor
for me
to trip over

she said:

wear a rubber

girls that never come

i am amazed
that i fall for it every time
(that i fall for you every time)

i know you are not coming
even before i ask
and i ask anyway

and you say
it’ll happen if not
this weekend then
definitely for my birthday and
one hundred percent for the sunday after

and it’s the sunday after
and it’s one in the afternoon
and it’s one more time i say
this is the last time
i wait around
for some dumb girl
to call or come

dream particle 7876

i drove passed you
in a dream

held hostage
in a vehicle

you watched me
from your window

both of us
in our robes

your stare
riveted to mine

when i could
no longer see you

i woke up wanting
to feel

your breathing
behind me

insomniac loop

i wish i could remember what it’s like to dream what it’s like to wake up
dreaming and remember every detail and a coherent sequence of events and
not just pieces of scenes that i can’t describe with an unnamed restlessness
attached to all of it and i know that it’s all on the tip of my memory if i
could just remember or if i could just stay asleep long enough to wake up
dreaming and remember every detail and a coherent sequence of events and
not just pieces of scenes that i can’t describe with an unnamed restlessness
attached to all of it and i know that it’s all on the tip of my memory if i
could just remember or if i could just stay asleep long enough to wake up
dreaming and remember every detail and a coherent sequence of events and
not just pieces of scenes that i can’t describe with an unnamed restlessness
attached to all of it and i know that it’s all on the tip of my memory if i
could just remember or if i could just stay asleep long enough to wake up
dreaming and remember every detail and a coherent sequence of events and not
just pieces of scenes that i can’t describe with an unnamed restlessness
attached to all of it and i know that it’s all on the tip of my memory if i

prickly

prickly
the soft skin
of your chin

like a sweet little pussy
with five o’clock shadow

i shall call you
my little hedgehog
always

even after i have
forgotten your name

bones in my back

i have no
bones in my back

when it
comes down
to it

only bones
in my pants
and head

when it
comes down
to you

being in love

being in love
is worse than

waking up
pregnant

in the South

still
if you get knocked up
at least you got options

love can
linger longer
than 18 years

hip

my hip is a shelf

for babies
and laundry

and lovers

torch

There is no flame brighter
more searing to the soul

The torch I bear for you

Even now
I long

to turn my head
in the direction of your voice.

my inside monster [4 haikus]

my inside monster
hitchhiker high low rider
liar coming clean

my inside monster
malicious maelstrom its leash
long lost from my hand

my inside monster
saltwater soother melts my
bitterest brother

my inside monster
munched your lunch at breakfast then
threw up down my dress

time

time
is the only thing
keeping everything
from happening
all at once

beeing

i am so far bee hind
i am a head

old skool cutting edge
avant garde cutting threads

and ties to past lives
and weaving them
into presents

mummy cups

hunny
please be kind
to your mummy
and give her hugs

get her that action frank doll
and a climbing wall
to climb
when she needs to get high

feed her some
of your mummy cups
straight from the store
to your freezer to please her

surf and turf
and surf her turf
and often
if you wish
to steer clear
the malevolent winds
of her curse

cement shoes

wind
wire
water
weaver

won’t let
me drown

won’t let
me down

only whisp
er waver
whatever

wind
wire
water
weaver

weave me
a story
to tie me
down
to a ten pound
weight

give me
my cement shoes

whisper

Sometimes I am afraid

someone will hear
the whisper of my skin
against stone

and notice me.